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 Valentine's Day Valentine's holiday mm, for him this is not rich, I flew to Guangzhou, and a girl spent most of my life happy Valentine's Day!
18 number, but also to the 18, we know already half a year, and there is such a girl, I long to stay gone so long a period of years, perhaps in the eyes of others, it appears that all this is unrealistic, but she always says .... remember the original thought Finally, the grass did not think it is swamp, maybe really blame me. Remember six months ago on a night ----:< br> a boring night, as usual I started boring the Internet CHAT, after a long time failed to speaker, I started on the Internet and shouted mm'm bored ah, who would accompany me to the phone, chat ah. Then she appeared. She said she wants to chat with me makes me happy, I'm no better we start considering the case of the phone chat, I was surprised she was not in Shanghai at the same time, I deeply feel her good, I like to lonely, I started wandering fantasy, so if there is one I like more than happy with me ah. So everything was such a smooth development. a boy when she will not give chase to say, but will go for a boy, I thought impulse, she accompanied me if there is more than good! this idea increasingly more concentrated, but always felt that she was not willing to be unrealistic. One day in a pleasant chat again, I could bear their own thoughts, half-jokingly asked: What do you chase me. Perhaps the original and should not have to say, maybe I thought she would answer in another joke to me. but did not think she suddenly Leng lived. After a good half of it will, she finally asked me one: that realistic?. I suddenly felt vertigo-like happy, and have not been considered too much a quick answer to: What is it unrealistic. Maybe I was such a selfish person, in order to seize the well-being, and not to think too much. just think are .
So we started this, but we have our ups and downs of romantic love.
everything carried out in such a romantic, she would phone me once a day, we will talk for a long time although good, can not say all night long but also for a long time. Remember, every night, I will wait in the quiet of her phone, she would run to her every day in the phone booth I.
in the two conditions will accompany the phone, We feel each other with joy, feeling relaxed, while on the phone so we know, everything seems in the expected place. One day she suddenly raised, said she was on October 1 will come to Shanghai to see me, on the that moment, a sense of confidence and a trace of a trace of not passing strange in my mind. I can not say any different, but always feel the hearts of ominous. But I do not know, that is why.
until ---- . That day, I came to the airport to see the eyes of her, but she would not say that. when I understand something until later I saw her diary, before we know the feelings of her time:
At that time she wrote ---- I know that God is very kind to me and let me in on a chance to know you. After the first call, there is a feeling told me that we must firmly grasp and seize this feeling kind of tempting me .. in love before, stupid women than men will always be myself and when I hold you tight blue together, I feel I am the happiest girl in the world. born romantic like me, already standing in the clouds, with happy eyes the crowd overlooking the false charge, have mercy on all beings. I look forward to the future, although the road is not flat, but I am willing to accompany you through this period of thorns. I firmly believe I will win. each and your phone call, in my mind it seems like you already know, I even know some of your phone in the habit of action, I was too familiar with him.
all feel when I go to the injury, at the airport, everything was gone, disappeared without a trace. well familiar to you, I have repeatedly asked his quiet, sober look, standing in front of you is a phone, but I still can not beat reason. Is not the reality, is that really is that you? I despair, I fell from the clouds, fall hurts, it seems that the soul fall without a trace.
this is what she wrote, I now know of that ominous hint of what it is is the fantasy and reality, the difference between romance and reality. Some say that love is the product of combination of romance and reality, because of the reality of maintaining a romantic beginning, maybe that hint of the ominous reality is that we not only romance, perhaps the confusion is the same with each the problem of online lover. all just a romance, it is an illusion of love, this time the issue was placed in front of us ---- is to end this illusion, or is it the fantasy mixed with reality, we are contradiction, we pondered.
consideration so we left Beijing, she, perhaps the answer is only after she returned to Shenzhen only ...